I’m 30 today 😫🎉🤦🏿‍♂️

Posted on 2023-10-02

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𝐇𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 😮‍💨🎂👑

So this might come as a shock to a lot of you but even as an alpha/cashmaster/heel, etc, I need to get this off my chest right now ..

Scrolling through Twitter ❌ & Facebook seeing all these amazing bodies and people I know getting numbers & opportunities that I’ve dreamed of while I’m working my ass off but not getting the same results has been destroying my mental health for a very long time but I’ve suffered in silence because I don’t think you lot care about what I am personally feeling. I’m wired in a very strange way where I love hard and don’t half ass anything or beat around the bush but I can only be myself. Anyone that really knows me knows that I started out this journey as a 𝗦𝗧𝗥𝗔𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 𝗛𝗢𝗠𝗢𝗣𝗛𝗢𝗕𝗜𝗖 𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗘 𝗧𝗛𝗔𝗧 𝗝𝗨𝗦𝗧 𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘𝗗 𝗪𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗧𝗟𝗜𝗡𝗚 when I was scouted because that’s what my family taught me to be (I’m very sorry about that) but I obviously became more open minded. Plus, they’ll know that I truly love wrestling and domination followed by the sex now as a 𝗕𝗜 𝗖𝗢𝗡𝗧𝗘𝗡𝗧 𝗖𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗧𝗢𝗥 but I can live without the sex part. It’s the hot, sweaty, intense and well acted pro wrestling that does it for me whether I’m watching or I’m performing. I only try to incorporate the porn because without it, the majority don’t wanna know or buy into what I’m selling.

Moreover, a part of me thinks that if I don’t ever have abs, I’ll never be fully appreciated or respected in the industries I’m in but I still continue to push myself everyday to get bigger and stronger through the mental and physical pain I’ve been dealing with! I’ve always felt like I was different as I never fit in anywhere. I also get super down when my numbers are low so I send my tweets to people on here to calm my nerves, anxiety and frustrations. People always message people I’m meeting to put them off meeting me too. It’s crazy coz I’m nothing like that. It’s very hard to get out of bed sometimes.

I believe I’m saying all this because I don’t really feel like I have anyone to talk to in these scenes (wrestling, findom, etc). Maybe I’m not alone in some of these things I’ve been feeling but I do feel alone on an island swimming against the tide which is truly exhausting. I wish things were different but this is just how it is and it eats me up inside! @1mastereagle, his manager and @marcwrestler might be the only genuine friends I’ve truly connected to long term in the 6 years I’ve been wrestling and my short time in porn. They are there when I need them with 𝗡𝗢 𝗘𝗚𝗢 𝗢𝗥 𝗝𝗨𝗗𝗚𝗘𝗠𝗘𝗡𝗧 and they deserve all the fame and fortune they get! I told Bboy he would become a star when we started this journey and now look. I’m very proud.

Anyway, everyone else just seems so focused on cliques, hierarchy, money, content and do this for me and you’re not doing that well or as well as me and blah blah blah. Never had that many genuine people that I want in my life ask me how I’m doing or call me. I think it’s because I struggle to let people in after what I’ve been through and you may not have gotten an approachable vibe from me before. Too many people stabbing me in the back or just treating me like shit for whatever reason. Think it might be because of things I said or did in the past. I’m very sorry about that too. I’ve grown a lot but I still don’t really have a filter. I say it how it is and I expect the same back as long as it’s factual, respectful and it makes sense.

Fact is I’ve gone through so many ups and downs so with my 𝟯𝟬𝘁𝗵 𝗯𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗵𝗱𝗮𝘆 now here, I just felt the need to express how I’ve been feeling for a long time and this ain’t even the half of it.

Thank you to everyone that does subscribe, follow and actually interact as in like, comment, repost, quote, tip, tribute, etc … it’s beyond appreciated and I will never take it for granted.

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Comments

mikey00 2024

2024-04-21 15:04

It's obviously too late to wish you a happy 30th birthday but the sentiment is there nonetheless.

Hope that you are doing okay and thanks for such an honest post. I really enjoy watching your work and I hope to meet you one day for some fun and wrestling domination.